Secret Thoughts
No one really knows that I think you're cute.
The truth would surprise them
not to mention you.
Even I didn't expect to feel any attraction.
Sometimes... well most times really
when I turned around,
I'd catch your eyes on me.
It was unsettling, but not unpleasant.
Then one day I looked, truly looked
at your eyes.
For the first time I noticed
how bright they were, how they almost glowed
and how I'd never seen blue that pale before.
I won't lie
not here in these secret thoughts
of jealous pangs
seeing you hug and touch your other friends
but not me.
Then one night I made a point
of hugging people myself
secretly, it was a way to hug you
and even more secretly
I was disappointed when you didn't hug me back.
But perhaps it had been enough
a bit of a signal of what was allowed,
for the memory still lingers warmly
just two days later
I looked up
only to see you walking over, smiling
just before you pulled me into your arms.
